If you have been following “My Trial” posts from this blog you know that it has been quite a journey with my right eye – a long 6 year journey. I am happy to report that I have gotten back my recent CT tests and PET Scan and they are clean of any Cancer. I am healed in my body! My body is well! I know a lot of you have been praying for me and I am greatly appreciative of this. It is a good feeling to be able to wake up this morning and not have the mental battle of the “what if”.

There were a couple of lymph nodes larger than normal but the doctors and the scans reported nothing of any concern and they weren’t that big. I will need to follow up with another CT scan in 3 months for comparison sake, but that is just normal to keep watch on things.

There is a scripture that says,

“Many are the afflictions of the righteous but the Lord delivers them out of them all.” Psalms 34:19

I think we can all attest to this one.

I go on the 24th and 25th to get the prosthetic eye. If you know my personality… then you should know I’ll have fun with that. Kid’s ministry, Youth ministry, restaurants, people on the street. I can think of all kinds of ways to get their attention and then share the gospel, He!He!

By faith I had started to write a book called “30 Reasons Why You’re Healed”. I started this back in December in the midst of this health battle and will finish it sometime in the next couple of months. I believe it will give encouragement to those in need. I will let you all know when it’s out for publication.

Thank you all for your prayers and…

Blessings to you on your journey,

Lee

This past Thursday evening bleeding started in the eye and I could not get it to stop. I have had bleeding before but was able to overcome it, but this was different. Missy was a real Woman of Faith as she read and spoke healing to me through the night. I finally laid down in the bed and held toilet paper over the eye to try and stop the bleeding. I was able to doze off and for the most part the bleeding had stopped sometime late evening early morning. When I woke up to start the day the eye was a mess and the growth that was on the eye had double to tripled in size and looked like a huge blood ball protruding from the eye. Missy and I both still stood in faith that no matter what it looked like God’s Word was still true. Nothing changes the Word. About two that afternoon the eyelid slid to the top of the growth and put pressure on it to where the bleeding began again. The growth also had grown bigger and it quite frankly, was too much to bear. Missy packed up the car and we headed for a two hour emergency ride to Atlanta, where a eye specialist would see us in the emergency room. It was a long two hour ride, but God was faithful to us. The doctor was waiting outside the hospital to escort us in and walked us right to a ER prep room. I had the surgery to remove the eye a few hours later. 

I am still processing this whole scenario, since I have spent six years proclaiming my healing and the health of this eye and now it is removed. Our spirits are up and encouraged though, and can see plenty of "God" in all of this. As time goes by I am sure that I will be given more understanding, but for now I know that my Redeemer lives and He has been faithful to us. "Give thanks in everything for this is the will of God for you." We continue to praise our Father and believe for a speedy recovery and for all the following procedures to go well. I will be getting a prosthetic eye in the near future. Well, thank you all for praying for us and please continue to do so as we move forward.

We love you all,

Blessings to you on your Journey,

Lee

Today is September 21, 2007 and I am cultivating and keeping the seed of healing that the Word of God is giving me. From a natural standpoint the eye seems no better and I frequently have pain in and around the eye area. Headaches are a norm as well. From this, we all could deduct that I have not harvested the fruit from the Word yet. The good news is that my faith is strong and I continue to trust in the seed and the finished work. I am walking in what I know, and this is not an easy journey. I am grateful for my time with the Lord and I have never been closer to him. I also feel his love on me at times and it is very comforting. Yes, I actually feel his love. It’s strange because I think to myself, if God is this close to where I can feel his love, why is the harvest lingering. I can get down at moments like that, and have to force myself to pull more weeds and keep the soil tender. Friends… this is tough. I appreciate your prayers and I believe these keys and truths that I am finding are bringing about the harvest. I will farm until the harvest manifests or until I cannot farm anymore. No matter what happens I believe that the Word of God is TRUTH! Healing is His will for everyone and in all circumstances, and He has already done it for us. His Word cannot lie and I can rely on His Word for my life (literally). Jesus made the statement that, “Man does not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceeds from the mouth of God.” I have to believe this. The church has to believe this. We all have to believe this. God loves us and we can trust Him with our lives.

This is the conclusion of this story for now and I have brought you up to date of where I am at today. You can download the entire story here if you want Download the_journey_20032007.doc . I will post from time to time on this journey to keep you all updated as I learn more and experience more.

Blessings to you all.

Lee

The question is not with God. It is with us. You ask for the fruit of healing, God responds with saying, �I have seed for that� and gives you his Word. You ask for the fruit of patience, God responds with saying, �I have seed for that� and gives you his Word. Patience always seems to be a long harvest. You ask for the fruit of financial blessing for your family, God responds with saying, �I have seed for that� and gives you his Word. This fifth key and the understanding that the Word of God is in seed form has literally set me free from some mentalities and ties into everything I have learned. The work is finished. Jesus has completed his work for us. It is now our time. I am healed because I have the seed of healing planted in my life, and I will bear fruit with patience one hundred fold. We must be farmers of the Word of God. If we cannot understand the Parable of the Sower how can we understand all the other parables, which many were about the Kingdom of God? If you have the seed, you have the fruit! If you have the baby, you have the adult. The only condition is how you nurture, cultivate, or keep it. You do this poorly and the baby will die, thus never producing the adult. The same goes for the farmer�s seed and the same will go for your promise in the Word. Farm wisely!

Now let�s go back to that dream I had that started all of this. If I have the baby, I have the adult. Well, in light of this new truth and key. If I have the seed I have the fruit. We all know that if you have a cucumber seed and you properly farm it, you will have cucumbers. The cucumbers are in the seed. Just like the cucumber, healing is in the seed as well. Financial blessing is in the seed, Salvation is in the seed. All that God has promised us comes to us first in seed form. It is up to us to receive it (plant it), and then spend time cultivating it, pulling all weeds of doubt and �speaking the seed�. Speaking the seed is like watering and fertilizing and it keeps your soil tender. Every thing that is promised to us from the word arrives in seed form. Then as we �keep it� we will bear fruit with patience. The word patience, by its very essence implies a time lapse. A farmer never reaps his harvest the same day he plants the seed. It just takes time. But does the delay mean that there is no harvest. Of course not! We all know that it takes �time� for a seed to turn into the fruit of what it is designed to be. The crucial part is in the cultivating, and I think that this is where most of us lose our harvest. God always does his part and �has done� his part. He has provided a never ending supply of seed for us because he wants us to have a huge harvest. Can you imagine what a farmer would think or do if someone told him they were going to give him an endless supply of seed for the rest of his life, and he would never have to pay for any of it? Holy Cow! No pun intended for the farmer. That would be literally AMAZING! This is what our God has done for us. He has given us an endless supply of seed for our lives. Anything that you need in life can be found in the big seed bag called the Word of God. It is our �seed for life.�

We all know how farming works. The farmer plants the seed, and then he must cultivate it. The cultivating of the seed is the �keeping� of the seed. He must tend to it and create an �ENVIRONMENT OF GROWTH�. He must keep the soil tender. He must water the seed. He must fertilize the seed. Then he must keep the seed clear of weeds that choke. Then he must �wait� patiently for the growth and finally the fulfillment of the seed, which is its fruit. I really hope you are getting this. I am trying to explain it as plainly as I know how. I used to read the bible in �fruit� form. Now I am reading the bible in �seed� form. You see, I used to pray for healing and God would answer my prayer by giving me seeds of healing (healing scriptures). When I didn�t see the healing, I would pray again, and God would answer my prayer again by giving me seeds of healing. Every time I would read and plant a scripture in my heart concerning healing it was a seed of healing. But since I was looking for fruits of healing I never saw the seeds, and therefore, never cultivated the seeds. I kept asking for healing and God kept giving me seeds, but I wasn�t looking for seeds. I was looking for the fruit. I never knew that God was answering my prayer all the time. Mark 11:24 states, therefore I say to you, whatever things you ask when you pray, believe that you receive them, and you will have them. This verse made even more sense when I looked at it through the seed form mentality. When I ask for something from the Lord, he gives it to me in seed form, and though I cannot see the manifestation of what I am praying for I have received it. I have received it in �seed form�.

This past summer somewhere around June of 2007 I awoke from a dream that was very symbolic. I dreamed I was nurturing a baby and made the comment, �If I have the baby, I have the adult�. It was as if in the dream I was trying to get an adult, but I was given the baby. Upon waking my comment stuck with me. If I have the baby, I have the adult. If I have the baby, I have the adult. I knew that this was pertaining to faith, but I didn�t have any scripture to keep this thought in a truth perspective. Where in the bible would this be found? Maybe I had just a stupid dream and it didn�t mean anything at all. Many different thoughts can run through your mind during times like this. That day I found myself thinking about the baby being the adult except in seed form. If I have the baby, I have the adult. If I want the adult I must first have the baby. Babies grow up to be adults. I was putting two and two together and then I was drawn to the scripture of the Parable of the Sower. After reading this passage it all came clear, and I saw something that I had never seen before. It�s amazing how much you can read something or be familiar with something in the bible and always see something new. The Parable of the Sower was a parable that Jesus said if we didn�t understand, then how could we understand anything in the Kingdom of God. There was a key here that once understood we could then learn to understand the rest of the Kingdom principles. We must understand the Parable of the Sower before we can truly understand anything else. Why did Jesus say this? The Parable of the Sower must be very important. More important then we think.

Part of the passage in Luke reads,�Now the parable is this: The seed is the word of God.  Those by the wayside are the ones who hear; then the devil comes and takes away the word out of their hearts, lest they should believe and be saved.  But the ones on the rock are those who, when they hear, receive the word with joy; and these have no root, who believe for a while and in time of temptation fall away.  Now the ones that fell among thorns are those who, when they have heard, go out and are choked with cares, riches, and pleasures of life, and bring no fruit to maturity.  But the ones that fell on the good ground are those who, having heard the word with a noble and good heart, keep it and bear fruit with patience.� Luke 8:11:15

As I studied this passage it hit me. The Word of God comes to us in seed form, not fruit form. The fulfillment of the Word of God is the fruit. This passage tells us that the Word of God is �SEED�. Please stop here�� think about this. It is seed. The Word of God is seed. The seed is not the fruit. You must plant the seed and then this passage says that you must �keep it� and then you will �bear fruit� with �patience�. In the other passages where this Parable is located (Mark 4 & Matt 13) it gives more light into that we will bear fruit some thirty, some sixty, and some a hundred fold. The amount of the fruit you receive will depend on the amount you �keep it�. What does �keep it� mean? This is a very important step, and a step that I believe stops most from receiving their fruit or in other words the fulfillment of the Word of God in their lives. Remember the passage says that we are to receive the Word of God, then we are to keep the Word of God, and then we will bear the fruit of the Word of God with patience. Don�t overlook the word �patience�.

I want to send out a "THANK YOU" to all who are reading this story of my journey. I will be finishing this story in the next couple of days and want you to know that I appreciate you taking the time to read. I will post the entire story on this blog for download if you want it. Periodically as I learn more I will share more with you. I hope in some way me being real with you concerning this journey has encouraged you in yours. Thanks again for reading.

Lee 

  This is my journey. I am glad you have come along. I am standing on the finished work. Do not merely expect me to be healed. Believe that I am healed. Stand with me in that. Stand with me that I already have my healing, and I am just waiting on the manifestation. This is not semantics. This is choosing to believe the Word of God and not accept current circumstances as ultimate truth. This is choosing faith. Every day of this journey I see God. Every day I see life. I see life in the air I breathe or in the water I drink. I see it in my wife�s eyes. I see it in the neighborhood children playing outside. I see it with co workers and friends.

      In the next few days I will finish this story and bring you all up to date with my current status and the faith that is "ever increasing". It will be about a fifth and final "key" that has literally blown me away. I cannot wait to share it in hopes that it will bless you as much as it has me.

            The appointed time for healing is now. Believers do not need healing in heaven, they need it now. I have come to know this as truth even though I may not have seen it manifest yet in my body. I will proclaim my healing just as I would proclaim my salvation, and I will believe both until both are manifested. This has helped me tremendously since now I am not waiting for a future day to get healed. I no longer have to pursue the mighty evangelist with the healing ministry for them to lay their hands on me so that I can get healed. I have already got it. I was healed 2000 years ago, but came to the realization of it on February 5^th 2007.

          As for the dreams that I was having — I have come to some understanding. I believe that the lions in my dreams represented fear or the devil creating fear. The lions never attacked me in the dreams they just prowled around and I was always fearful of them in my dreams. Remember, the devil goes around as a roaring lion seeking whom he may devour (1 Peter 5:8).  The snakes represented temptation or the devil bringing temptation. After this last dream with a snake in it, just two days ago I found myself fighting unbelief. I was being tempted to give up and doubt God. The good thing about this last dream was that I was stomping the snake�s head and killing it.

           The tornadoes in my dreams I am still seeking clarity, but I believe they may simply represent the storms of my life. There is nothing too deep here with these interpretations, but sometimes I over analyze things and make them more complicated than they are. The last tornado dream I had was a couple of weeks ago.  I stood at the window looking out at the tornado coming towards me, and I spoke to the tornado commanding it to dissolve. I then promptly jumped under a couch! Dreams are funny, but I did get something out of this one. The speaking to the tornado was offensive and the jumping under the couch was defensive. This was the very same thing I was doing with this physical battle in my eye. The confessing and believing of the Word was offensive and the diet was defensive.  Sometimes we have to do a combination of things on our journey to healing.  It can be a battle, and battles require strategies.