September 13th, 2007 by admin

            I have been studying quite heavily Andrew Wommack�s teachings on healing and what Jesus has already done. I am also digesting this truth of the finished work and realizing more and more that the devil is a liar. The devil only has access to our lives through our lack of knowledge of the truth. Once the truth is known, temptation to believe otherwise is futile. For example, if I proclaimed cherries were blue. People who know about cherries would not be tempted to believe that. Satan only has access where we lack knowledge. This is why it is so important to know the truth. The truth will set anyone free.

            I recommend two series from Andrew Wommack�s ministry for anyone dealing with health issues in life. The first is titled, �You Already Got It� and the other is �God Wants You Well.� They are free from his ministry, as are all of his teachings.

            Let me give a small summary of the �Keys� that I have mentioned. The first key was that healing was the children�s bread. This gave me an understanding that it was God�s will for me to be healed. It helped me come from the idea that God could heal me to God would heal me. The second key was in Jeremiah 17:7-8 that if I trust in Him my leaf would be green. This helped me to trust the Lord that He would take care of my physical body no matter what the trial seemed like. The third key was in Psalms 103:1-5, when I noticed healing and forgiveness were in the same verse. I knew then that healing and forgiveness were packaged together in redemption, and that if God was not going to heal me then he would not forgive me either. Since I knew that He would forgive me, this gave me an understanding that he would also heal me. The fourth key helped bring all three keys together and gave me a slight adjustment. Not only was it God�s will for me to be healed, and not only would I be healed if I trusted in Him, and not only was forgiveness and healing in the same package, but God had ALREADY healed me and I had already received the package.

            This package is the redemption package. I was trusting and waiting for God to heal me and I knew that he would, what I did not understand was that it had already been done, and I had to stand on this truth until manifestation. This idea is just like our salvation. When we receive salvation, can we give proof of our salvation? No, we cannot. Our salvation will manifest at the appointed time, and that is when we physically die here on earth. Salvation manifestation will kick in, and we will spend eternity in heaven with Jesus. Until that appointed time, believers go around telling people that they are saved and never think twice about it. Of course, we do change many life habits in the course of living out our earthly salvation, but actual eternal life in heaven will not begin until death.

September 12th, 2007 by admin

            On March 4th 2007 I wrote the following……..Today is March 4^th, 2007 approximately one month later and the eye is getting better every day. There is just a touch of sensitivity left and I am rejoicing in the truth that I had found. Even though the sensitivity is going away, I still cannot see out of the eye and as far as the cancer goes the symptoms are still there. This remains a journey of identity and I am learning who I am in Christ by understanding what He did for me. I wish I could proclaim that the manifestation of what Jesus has done for me has happened, but for all natural purposes it has not. I know that I was healed, and it was revealed to me on February 5^th, 2007. I will confess and believe it until the manifestation. It will happen and I do believe.

September 11th, 2007 by admin

            I had not fully seen what Jesus had done for me on the cross. I had been carrying around my sin and felt at times that it was my time to reap. Jesus showed me that He took my sin, and this was not just sin, it was my sins. My actual sins he bore, which also brought new meaning to him taking my actual disease. He did not just take cancer or iris melanoma, but he bore the one in my eye, the actual one in my eye. When I caught all this I wondered why I had been holding on to my sin and why I was bearing this iris melanoma when He already did it. I also came to the understanding that the actual iris melanoma in my eye could not be in two places at once, and if he already bore it 2000 years ago then how could it be in my eye now?

            Then it hit me. IT IS A LIE! The devil is a liar and he is trying to tell me that I have to bear this cancer. He was also trying to tell me that I had to bear my sin and the penalty of my sin. He is a liar! I knew that if Jesus had bore my sin and disease 2000 years ago, I could not have it today. When the truth is found, the truth will set anyone free. This was the fourth key and biggest one of them all and actually helped me to understand the first three keys better. This was the breakthrough that I needed and prayed for while in the tub just moments earlier. The Lord answered my prayer in minutes. This was the night of February 5^th, 2007. This was the night I declared that I am healed (not going to be) but healed, and from this day forward the eye would get better every day. The work had been done. The healing had been done. It had all been done in the past and I did not even know it.

September 10th, 2007 by admin

      That night after we arrived back home in Oklahoma, while I was sitting in the tub, the eye was in bad shape and I needed relief. I was holding on to all the verses I knew and standing on the new found revelation of the scriptures being receipts, but to be quite honest I was mostly just praying for mercy. Any believer suffering wants to be strong in God and stand in powerful faith, but I knew that if the eye got any worse, or if I just could not take it anymore, I was going to have to do something. I needed mercy. I just prayed, �Lord I need relief� and �Lord, you have got to do something.� After getting out of the tub I went to one of our spare rooms and began reading through the list of healing scriptures that I would recite quite often. I came to a verse that I had been reading for four years. I started to read it, and a light bulb went off, and I understood and saw it like never before. The verse was I Peter 2:24. This is one of the basic scriptures on healing and one that I had been quoting forever it seemed. The verse reads, �He Himself bore our sins in his body on a tree, that we may die to sin and live unto righteousness, and by his stripes we were healed.� I always concentrated on the last part of the verse and would say quite often, �by his stripes I am healed.� This time, however, was different. I never read very carefully the first part of the verse. When I read �He Himself bore our sins in his body,� I stopped and said very slowly, �Lord, if you bore my sin in your body, then you also bore the result of my sin, which is sickness, disease, and other things.�

            I was free at that very instant. I realized that sickness and disease were a result of the fall of man or sin. When sin entered the world, sickness and disease entered the world. I had been saved a long time and knew that when Adam and Eve sinned it brought the fall of man, and sickness, disease, death, hate, poverty, and all the other bad things. What I had not seen was that when Jesus took our sin away that He also took away our sickness, our disease, our poverty, our depression, and all of the bad results. If sin is what brings death to the world, then the removal of sin brings life to the world. This is what Jesus was talking about when He said that He came to give us life and life abundantly. This was an awesome revelation to me. I realized that for disease to prosper it had to be attached to sin. Remove the sin and remove the disease. Romans 6:23 says that the wages of sin is death. Death is a result of sin. Where there is sin, there will be a dying of things. If believers have no sin then they have no wages and, therefore, anything pertaining to death is no more. Death can be multiple things, and I knew that cancer was a death of the cells in my body. Jesus removed our sin when He died on the cross.

September 9th, 2007 by admin

            January 23^rd I woke up and was getting ready for church and realized that the eye had become irritated and red. I had put the eye drop in which made it worse. Over the next week I could barely keep the eye open, and it was becoming sensitive to light. I had also noticed pain that would shoot through the eye like someone poking it with a needle. It was sharp and quick and then would go away.

The following Sunday Missy and I had traveled to South Carolina for a raw foods seminar and to visit some friends. The eye was horrible and I squinted most of the trip due to the sensitivity. I also had those dark sunglasses that wrap around your head that most folks in their eighties wear. I knew that I was at a crossroads. Not only could I not see out of the eye, but now I was dealing with pain and irritation, and I could not even keep the eye open. I started dealing with the reality that this fight to save the eye may be ending. I could not take pain in the eye and in my sales job I could not function with the eye being so sensitive. Thoughts of removing the eye were ever present, but I just could not believe that it was going to end this way. I also thought that keeping the eye this long with the disease could cause the doctor to do the worst type of surgery that could disfigure the eye area. Our friends we had been visiting prayed for me and shared a timely word. The word was that the Word of God is a receipt book. Everything in the Word was bought and given to me for my life. The scriptures were receipts of what God had purchased for me. This was an awesome revelation. I understood that when I saw a receipt I knew that someone had purchased something. This was easy to understand and I took it to heart. The scriptures were filled with healing. These healing scriptures were now my receipts of the healing that Jesus purchased for me on the cross. I knew that he had bought my healing with His blood, but sometimes a simple revelation is needed to begin driving it home.

September 9th, 2007 by admin

            One day in January I was listening to a message by Keith Moore. I do not remember the title, but the theme was grace. I had not spent much time studying grace, but understood enough of it just over the years being a Christian. I had a few conversations with my pastor at the church we were and still are attending and he noticed that a lot of our conversations seemed to indicate that I thought that I was not doing enough. My life schedule was disciplined, but it still was not enough to get me well. I had to somehow do more. He encouraged me to do a study on grace and try not to be so performance based in my thinking. The Keith Moore tape that I was listening to was around this theme of grace. During the teaching Keith Moore made a comment that struck deep. He said that for a believer to tell if he or she is walking in grace to ask this question: �Are you working for it, or are you resting in it?�  

            On the tape, he repeated this around three times and by the third time it sunk in. I was definitely working for it. I was working hard for it. This really freed me up in the spirit, and I began trying to rest in God�s grace, trying to take comfort that God was faithful and that I was going to be healed. This was a difficult process for me since for almost a year I had been hooked into an extreme regimen of physical and spiritual tasks. I always tried to take all my supplements or get all of my juicing in, or make sure I got my quiet time in so that I could stay on track. Fear can creep in when parts of a routine are missing. I wanted to do everything in my power to do it right even though I was not seeing the results I wanted.

            This began a process of setting me free. I did not stop the diet because I knew that the food that I was eating and the vegetables I was juicing were good for my body. It was satisfying my mouth so that my youth could be renewed like the eagles, as stated in Psalms 103:5. What did happen though, was if I could not get to a particular juicing that day or I missed my quiet time, I did not worry about it. I began to trust God to pick up my slack. The emotional side of this was refreshing and freedom began to come into my weary being. It was a great feeling. I also realized that I was trusting in my juicing more than I was trusting in God. God does require us to do our part, but we have to remember that His burden is light. We are the ones who make it heavy.

September 7th, 2007 by admin

            I was continuing on the diet and my routine, but by now I could no longer see detail out of the eye. All I could see were shadows. Even though the eye got worse, I had to keep believing. The Word had to be true and I was determined to not let it go. So many reasons seemed to come to mind why I should be holding out for healing. Missy and I had talks about these reasons and some were found to be not valid. I had to really stop and think. Why am I doing this? What am I trying to prove? I had to crystallize why I was doing this. It literally came down for me and I say for me, that I had to know that I could live by the Word. I had to know that if I needed something in life, that I could obtain it through the Word. Now let me qualify this statement. You can only obtain through faith what was given in grace. I will say it this way. You can only obtain through faith what Jesus provided through grace. We know that he provided salvation to us through His grace; so therefore, we can obtain it through faith. I had to know that the Word was true and that I could count on it for life. Ephesians 1:3 says, �Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places in Christ.� I was going to put my life in the hands of the Word and I was going to do my part in the natural even if it wore me slap out.

September 6th, 2007 by admin

            December drew near and in my studying about health, I began realizing the role the colon plays in overall health. There are very disgusting pictures on the internet of the stuff that can come out of the colon. Many times these �nasties� are hindering the digestive system and are blocking the absorption of good nutrients. Needless to say, if I was going through all this trouble eating properly, I sure did not want something blocking it from the inside. I contacted a local health facility and had three sessions of Colonics. The doctor was great and talked to me about some other alternative therapies that he had used and had success in, especially when treating cancers. For the next couple of months I spent a lot of money with no results to show for it. I did Vitamin C intravenously, Hydrogen Peroxide intravenously, Hyperbaric Oxygen Chamber treatments, and Frequency Spas. The doctor even made a special battery operated eye patch with stones in it that generated a certain type of infrared heat that was supposed to increase circulation and have healing properties. I was supposed to wear the eye patch for three hours a night, but could never quite get there since the batteries only lasted for 2 � hours. This all sounds crazy, but anyone dealing with a life-health issue will always seem to be searching for the �Silver Bullet.� I will say that the natural therapies I am sure were good for me and my experience at the health center was wonderful. The therapies were just not producing any results for me, so I felt like I needed to discontinue them. 

September 6th, 2007 by admin

              Months passed by and I was sticking to the diet, taking my one eye drop, and trusting in God. I was holding on to the three keys that I had been given, but no sign of healing was evident. Actually, cloudiness had developed in the eye and was growing slowly worse. I could not tell if the eye was getting blurry or if it was just cloudy. One thing for sure is that my vision was getting worse. I was concerned because it was becoming more and more difficult to see out of the eye. Missy would pray; I would pray; I would get others to pray; I would get prayed for; I would lay hands on myself; I would listen to healing tapes and television programs; I would lay hands on the television as they would pray for listeners to be healed; I would go hear evangelists and get them to pray for me.  I did everything I knew how to do and got exhausted doing it. I was on this extreme diet, preparing the vegetables for juicing and juicing in the morning before work, coming home at lunch and juicing again, and then juicing once more in the evening after work. I was also reading the Word profusely and praying a lot. I was working hard to be healed and doing everything I knew to do and still not getting better. I remember one day just looking at Missy in the kitchen and saying, �I just can�t do it all.� There were too many demands that were required for me to be well. I had to stay in the Word; I had to pray and build my relationship with the Lord; I had to adhere to this extreme diet and juicing schedule, and I just could not do it all. I also had a very demanding job that required some travel and I was being pulled in many different directions. It was a very difficult time emotionally, and I have not even told you about the Christian general contractor that bellied up and took us all for a ride on that garage cottage we were building. That is another story for another day, but one that added more emotional and financial stress to our already cumbersome life.

September 4th, 2007 by admin

            At the beginning of this journey, it was a journey of identity. I was finding out who I was and this carried over not only in the physical but also in the spiritual. Who had God made me to be? Who was I in the spirit? What was I like in the soul? These I was discovering.

            All along, I had been quoting Psalms 103-1-5 over and over and would concentrate on verse 3 where it says, �Who forgives all your iniquities, Who heals all your diseases.� When one day I read those five verses and verse 5 stood out like it was highlighted. Verse five says, �Who satisfies your mouth with good things, so that your youth is renewed like the eagle�s.� I just wanted to throw this in because we tend to skip this verse because of not really knowing its allusion. The food that I had been eating was some of the healthiest available, and I was eating it because it would be good for my immune system. In light of the diet I was eating, this scripture jumped off the pages and gave me understanding that God would provide good things for my mouth as stated in the first part of the verse. This of course was the healthy food I was eating and the result would be that my youth would be restored like the eagles. Now I can not go into the story of the eagle but after a horrible, weak, molting period the eagle regains strength and is restored to flying high. Of course this spoke to me in my current situation. Perhaps this scripture should be viewed differently by many believers. Many people need to trust God to restore health and actually make good foods satisfying to them.