August 24th, 2007 by admin

            About six weeks or so after the June checkup, I had the dreaded valve surgery, which I am sad to say, also did not work. My visits to the doctor�s office increased to 3 times a week, and he added an exercise called eye compressions. I had to push on the eye every two hours to manually push my eye fluid through the valve and out of the back of the eye. I also had to go on every eye drop possible along with pills. After all this, my pressure was still high and hovering around thirty. It was worse than it had ever been, and now I had hardware in the eye that could not be removed. Furthermore, the pills were known to cause kidney stones. I kept up the 3 per week office visits, kept pushing on the eye every two hours, took the eye drops, and popped down the pills. It was a disaster, and it went on for the next 3 months. 

            I had heard that walking in faith was easy, and all I had to do to be healed was receive it.  I Peter 2:24 said that I was already healed. I tried to see that with my spiritual eyes. I tried to understand what Jesus already had done for me. The result was that I just got more frustrated when preachers would say that it was �easy� to receive. Maybe I could not figure out �easy.� Maybe my easy button did not work. If it was so easy why was it going on three years and I was worse off then I had ever been?  I would confess and say that �I receive,� but total healing continued to elude me.